Simply Being Alive — Just This!

Having been an explorer in nondual spirituality for many decades, I find that what I most deeply want is simply to be okay with life as it is, awake in this moment, not in some spectacular transcendent way, but very simply—hearing the birds or the traffic sounds, enjoying a cup of coffee, feeling the breathing, delighting in the visual world, feeling the pain that is mine to feel. Simply life as it is. Just this!

I cannot find any "self" at the center of experience who is calling the shots, although thought poses as "me" and claims to be the thinker-chooser-doer. But from careful observation, it seems clear that our urges, desires, impulses, interests, preferences, abilities, thoughts and actions all arise unbidden from we know not where.

It also seems that all apparently formed things, including people, are like waves in the ocean—ever-changing and inseparable movements of a seamless and inseparable whole. This one bottomless moment is ever-changing in appearance while never departing from the immediacy of right here, right now.

When we believe that we are small, separate and in control, feelings of deficiency, anxiety, guilt, blame and dissatisfaction inevitably follow. We struggle to improve, and we search for certainty and something to grasp. But in holding on to nothing at all, there is immense freedom.

What is offered here invites firsthand exploration and direct discovery, not belief or dogma. There is no finish-line, no method, no future goal, only this ever-fresh aliveness.